Thursday, April 23, 2009

Mrs. Jorgensen

I can't believe you had us do this assignment.
I'm not mad, I'm pretty excited, really. I mean, I already find some similarities between Holden's attitude and what I think depression is. I mean, he probably has insomnia and everything I've been through since 7th grade. Not eating for long periods of time, never sleeping, and things that just drain you and make you feel lonely and empty.

Childhood and Adulthood

Even though Holden can be really immature I think he knows how to be more mature. I mean running away from places is pretty childish and if you were actually thinking you would not just spend all your money on just being alone for a couple days when your goal was to not be so lonely. And he's going to get into trouble for it with his parents later. That kind of immaturity is not uncommon among some people that I know. But its not something that I would go through with. So I guess I don't totally know where that was going but I think that Holden just is caught up in his childhood and does not want to be an adult yet. I can't exactly blame him.

Tuesday, April 21, 2009

The More

The more I read this book, the more I want to know Holden in real life. I feel like for some reason we'd get along. He does not show many people his true colors and I just have a feeling that we would be friends. I know he would not be the kind of person to open up and start sharing his life with me right away but I guess I'm not totally that person either. I hide things everyday and I don't tell some of the most important things in my life to the most important people to me. I'm constantly debating with myself, as is Holden. Really, we both do it. And when Holden starts talking about how he just wants to leave Pencey because he feels so lonely and then he does and just heads to New York for awhile. I saw myself in him in those pages more than anything because when I get lonely I'll do anything to get away and I'll stay away from that lonely place for as long as I can. I mean, if I went to a all girls boarding school, I would not be half as well behaved as I am right now. I know that for fact because even though girls are good friends and are awesome, I would get lonely because I would allienate myself, and thats sort of what Holden is doing. Allienating himself.

I think its the depression.

Holden is

Holden is confusing and interesting makes me want to keep reading. I love the way he talks to people even if it isn't always respectful, the truth, or the smartest thing to say at that moment.
I suppose I empathize with him. I feel for him in a lot of ways. Some of the things he's going through, the loneliness and what not. The teenage angst and frustration with a lot of the world and feeling like the world is against me and does not really have any true feelings even though they truly do, at least most of the time.